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Oct 25, 2003

Change

Do people change? or do they're situations change? Have people always been the same as they are or just becuase they're live situations change, and their mind changes do they change? I mean people are still the same people, feelings cannot change that they can change certain aspects but i don't think people ever make a compltele change in character. There is always gonna be something the same about them

do you ever think about a certain moment when something change in your life? Do you remember the specic moment you became best friends with somebody. Is there even a changing moment in your life. Do you think about the moment when you matured and you gained some insight and you cried and cried but you felt stronger after it, or did you feel weaker after it. Can people change you? Can something crush you? Are you strong enough to survive it all.

Do you remember the first words you spoke to your best friend, or the first day of school. Do you remember the day you realized you liked english better than math or that you hated social studies. Is there a specific moment when skittles became your favotire candy or a moment when you "grew up" Do you ever really grow up? When did you become you?

Posted at 11:58 pm by Trina318
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Kelly Convo

bubblegumhead: and if you need yarn
bubblegumhead: for that scarf you're knitting
bubblegumhead: you'll get alot
bubblegumhead: if you kill a kitten
Irishcutie318: what
Irishcutie318: what
Irishcutie318: what
Irishcutie318: kill a kitten?
Irishcutie318: a kitten?????
Irishcutie318: what
bubblegumhead: just sing along
Irishcutie318: ok
bubblegumhead: when the game of life
bubblegumhead: makes you feel liek quittin
bubblegumhead: it helps alot
bubblegumhead: fi you kill a kitten
Irishcutie318: ok
bubblegumhead: mark my words
bubblegumhead: cuz from where im sitting
Irishcutie318: see i dont' like songs about death
bubblegumhead: you cant go wrong
Irishcutie318: so we'll have to change this
bubblegumhead: if you kill a kitten
Irishcutie318: how about....adopt a kitten
bubblegumhead: theres no crime
bubblegumhead: that youd be committin
bubblegumhead: i know the law
bubblegumhead: you acnkill a kitten
Irishcutie318: adopt a kitten
bubblegumhead: feed it turpentine
Irishcutie318: ahhhh
bubblegumhead: as long as you
bubblegumhead: kill a kitten
bubblegumhead: kill a kitten
bubblegumhead: and i quote the bible
bubblegumhead: cuz thast where its written
bubblegumhead: if yee loveth jesus
bubblegumhead: ye must kill a kitten
bubblegumhead: sitck some tnt
Irishcutie318: omggggg
Irishcutie318: thats sick
bubblegumhead: up his cat booty
bubblegumhead: as long as you kill a kitten
bubblegumhead: killin kittens isnt easy
bubblegumhead: and if the thought makes you queasy
bubblegumhead: grap a pitchfork from teh shed
bubblegumhead: and kill a puppet dog instead
Irishcutie318: omg
Irishcutie318: nooooooooooooooooooooooo

Posted at 11:27 pm by Trina318
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Oct 24, 2003

WEdding

Just got back from la marriage de june and jerry. So awesome. They looked so happy when they were dancing together i almost started crying. It was so meaningful. The irish step dancing thing was amazing i was so scared but it went off pretty much withotu a hitch minus one thing at the end but nobdoy noticed anyway. It was good. Kerri and I made noise in the hotel playing our music and dancing up and down the halls i really hope there was nobody in this one room i was outside of the entire time otherwise they would have been really upset. Everyone was completly wasted by the time I went down to the dance floor, after kerri had left. They were all up and dancing and crazy so i just got up and danced with them, but they were all completely wasted. My parents weren't though. Yay. lol

so today i made a mess of my room looking for my poodle socks finally finding them but still I made a mess I'm gonna have to clean up tommorow and I have two tests tuesday I have to study for. I have to do good on my math test. I just have to remember not to make stupid mistakes. Yes I am sure you all care. But I have to do soooo good on it i need a 100 plus plus otherwise my average for the quater is screwed.

Pictures!! I need to get my pictures developed. I have so many rolls of dance with caitlin, pictures from the feis, kerri and i's practice session, and the wedding now. So I realy want to put them into the one hour...maybe I will tommorow. but then I'll have to pay to get them developed myself and I have like no money.

So now I have to take a shower but its like 11 30 and I doubt my parents would be too happy for be to go upstairs and take a shower because I don't like the shower downstairs.

Ya know something I absolutly love my apenglish class. It is probably the best class I have ever taken as a student. I learn so much, and I like expand my reaches in literature and stuff lol but its just so amazing. Mr. Lynch is the best teacher and my class is so awesome...Kelly, Jessica, Nikki, John, Byran, Allicia lots of people its amazing lol i know that was so random but i was just thinking about it

anyway i am tres wired and i am gonna go liek read something or watch tv or something, but theres nothing to watch i think....oo tommoros night sleeping beauty is on but i have the dvd so therefore....its pointless.

ya know what else is horrible cigarettes tonight at the reception kids were giving other kids cigarettes how horrible is that it makes me want to cry

*tri

Who am I supposed to be?
A girl who stays at home alone
baby needs a fantasy
someone who'll never let me go
could i be forgiven
for how i want my life to be
i'm gonna wish upon a star
i'm gonna go too far
need a little love to get me by
let's start with you and I
i'm gonna wish upon a star
do you think i've gone to far
need a little love to get me by

let's start with you and i
everybody judges me
but tell me
who am i supposed to be
what i want
or what they se
could i be forgiven
for just needing
to be me
i'm gonna wish upon a star

i'm gonna go too far
need a little love to get me by
let's start with you and i
so you better watch out
you should have no doubt
i don't care what people say

Posted at 11:37 pm by Trina318
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test

This is a test entry because this site was down for a while

Posted at 11:22 pm by Trina318
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Oct 22, 2003

TOday

Procrastinating
again

so today was an ok day again. Emily was so hyper in yearbook and it all rubbed off on me oddly enough. I have to go straighten my hair because I don't feel like blow drying it. This green is really bright. It gives the screen a verdant glow.

everyones talking
but they don't say a thing
they look at me with sad eyes
but i don't want their sympathy

why is it you get off the late bus just as interesting conversations are starting?

anyway i really wish maureen was back here becuase i really haven't talked to her in a long time but today she has the program and she had a demortologist appointment.

So today Courtney and Becca beat up the vending machine to get my sour skilttles out. I was very upset I mean thats so stupid when the food is just stuck there. They should make better vending machines.

once again i'm freezing. The colness seriously has seeped into my skin. Its freezing in here sooooo cold i'm like shivering. Actually I am freezing

so apparently I don't get stuff and because of this I had to get rid of one of my away messages and i liked that away message too

ok so today it was interesting mr. formisano told us it wouldn't work if you jumped out a first floor windo to kill yourself unless you tried really hard to land on your head. I was like this is a lovely conversation.

ya know i really do hate all the drama of high school its so annoying

i am so tired i'm falling asleep as i'm sitting here. I guess its because I'm tired. I should blast some music. Some of my crappy pop music but it still makes me happy

if it makes you happy
then it can't be that bad
if it makes you happy
then why the hell are you so sad?

well today in yearbook it was like bam I did so many essays until emily tried writing out the prophet one and she was like "we can now print the articles because we have more paper" i was like wthhhhh

lol it was messed up
wth stands for what the hell

i would have given you all of my love
but theres someone whose tearing apart
and hes taking just all i have
if you want to try to love again
but i know
the first cut is the deepest
baby i know
the first cut is the deepes
when it come to being lucky hes cursed
when it comes to loving me hes worst
i still want you by my side
just to help me dry the tears that i cry
and i'm sure dont' give you a try
if you wanna try to love again
baby but i know
the first cut is the deepest
baby i know the first cut is the deepest
and when ti comes to being lucky hes cursed
and when it comes to loving me hes worst

ok leaving
bye
*tri

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Oct 21, 2003

El Danse

Hola Amigos!

Si Senoritta

psat day.......not as bad as i thought....i probably left like 10 blank overaall not bad though considering. Mr Lynch was right though.....its hard for us ocd people to leave blanks but i did leave some blank.......weeeee yay for me. And I didn't pick the Joe Blogg answer at least I hope I didn't. Easy questions have easy answers and hard questions have hard answers.

so then kerri and i went back here and practiced for the wedding........we can pull it off yesssss Kerri is soooo good though lol

now waiting to go to dance

ya know what i don't understand when people have as their away messages

-shower 2564839 call me

how the hell are they supposed to answer the phone if they are in the shower hmm

let's see oooo yeah kerri and i's routine for the wedding is gonna involve
a fog machine
and fire sticks

well in my world it would and in my world i could do toe stands
but alas because kerri thinks she would burn down the place if she had fire
and we would really hurt ourselves with the fog
we're not doing that
:sigh:
all my good ideas get crushed by logical minds

anyways dance soon
i feel relaxed because we didn't have like classes today and
because i am just relaxed
i had a relaxing day
well not really it could have been more relaxing
but i feel relaxed
and tire
i feel like its the weeken
but its only tuesday
dammit
well it will be friday soon
and then it will be time for the wedding
wow
times flies
i can't believe its already october
also i better have a math test soon to bring up my average
yeap
i don't know why
i'm wirting liek this
down in a columan
its a weird cool caitriona thing i gues
theres lots of weird cool caitriona things in the world
thats what makes the world so cool
anyway gotta go dance in like 15
haven't been there in soooo long
let's hope they didn't learn something that i won't get
cross your fingers
ok
i better go
yeah i said that already

*tri

i don't want to hear i'm too young
to know its love that makes me feel this way
cause I don't need to feel the heat of the sun
to know its shining on my everyday

Posted at 05:29 pm by Trina318
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Oct 20, 2003

hey

I am babysitting right now, the kids are upstairs causing no trouble for once in their lives. I have the tv on in the backround and I'm watching everwood even though I have never watched that show once in my life. Its kind of interesting. I also have Clay Aikens Cd on in my portable cd player but I only have one headphone thing in so I can hear if the kids throw themselves down the stairs or something, which is not such a shocking thought. Last time I babysat they walked on the roof (see journal back like 20 entries) lol

If I was invisible
I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible

I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable

I could just tell you where I stand
if i was invisible
wait.....I already am

Ya know who annoys me, the doctor on everwood, he really annoys me so much. I know I never watched the show, but he really annoys me.

Ya know something bad stuff happens sometimes, it happens to teach us a lesson, it happpens to teach other people a lesson and maybe it just happens to show us that everything isn't in our control, maybe as a wake up call. Bad Stuff is something you have to learn to live with. Sometimes stuff happens and we learn from it, and we grow so much. It hurts yeah; a lot of times we just end up in this ditch....and you feel like you can't get out but you will

theres something about the way you look tonight
theres something about the way i can't take my eyes off you
its something about the way your lips invite
maybe its the way i get nervous when you're around
and I want you to be mine
if you need a reason why
its in the way that you move me
its in the way that you tease me
its in the way that i want you tonight
its in the way that you hold me
and the way that you know me

when i can't find the right words to say
you feel it in the way

I read this book called "five people you meet on the way to heaven" and this guy dies and he meets five people that were in his life and they explain how his life was worth something they explain like sacrifice, death, loyalty, love, and the last one was basically like saving grace. The guy in the book dies on his 84th birthday trying to save a little girl from a falling asusement park ride. The five people he meets are not the people you would expect but they were part of him and they explained to him about his life. it was a very inspirting book, but it was sad because the first person was this man who took this medication for his nerves and it made his skin turn blue and he was riduculed. It makes you be thankful for things you have

i know this is an in depth journal entry

love is an interesting thing, i really think thats its different for everyone, you can't explain it at all you just know and when you know......you really do feel like you want to laugh and cry at the same time.

*tri

When you say you love me, do you mean it. Baby when you hold me do you feel it
i believe in he magic in your eyes
i would wait until the end of time
to hear you say i love you like you mean it
when you hold me baby feel it
all i want to do is make you mine
i've been hurt way too many times
they say if you want to make God laugh just tell him your plans
i know the timings not right
didnt' know i would meet you tonight

Posted at 09:18 pm by Trina318
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Weddings

This wedding thing is so screwed up.....maybe its the procrastinator in all of us, but i swear we better be able to pull this off.....otherwise i am so screwed

anyway apparently you shouldn't make fun of your uncle that never comes to visit you, never calls you, never e-mails you, and never ever like basically sees you except for twice a year and never used to send birthday cards before he got married. I mean we never see him at all the only time we hear from him is near christmas, his birthday or when he needs something such as his car insurance which he has mailed here, and I think that it would be so much fun if i had stuff sent to his house but when i said this, i got yelled at.....yeah i don't understand it sometimes.

anyways so cold right now and guess how much money i have in my bank account thing which i use for the money i spend 1 46 lol but i have like 200 dollars to put in its just not in there yet so the bank statement looks really pitiful like i'm scraping by on pennies. Anyway I have to clean my room like right now and in like an hour i'm babysitting (which i don't want to do i'm so tired) I still gotta go to cvs and i keep reminding myself to go but ya know what i don't remember why i'm going in the first place, I just know I have to go maybe it'll come to me when i'm babysittin

its freezing i feel like the coldness has permanetly seeped into my skin and bones its pretty scary feeling

anyway today was an alright day jessica is incredibly happy which is good because she hasn't been incredibly happy for a long time and thats always good. I on the other hand was just having an ok day and i just totlaly bsed my math homework writing down numbers, this is why i don't do good in math i have to work harder.......eeh maybe later before a test. I wrote a big note to myself to remember to ask her about something i dont' understand....even though i never have the nerve everyone in my math class is so friggin smart and i'm like not........

ok gotta play gamecube with my sister because she needs somebody to play with and i have to babysit soon

bbl

*tri

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Oct 19, 2003

Sunday

Today is Sunday. so anyway I finished my apenglish essay but i think it was pretty bad. To quote kelly "there is many a rewrite ahead of me"

so now i don't have anything to say

Posted at 04:22 pm by Trina318
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Oct 17, 2003

Stuff

I miss caitlin
I know that shes only been gone not even a day but i still miss her

ya know whose annoying........siblings. I am so annoyed at my sister she finds all this stuff to say about me, she thinks shes so much better than me.

anyway got my apush test back that i had a good feeling about....i got an 88 i techinically should have had.....and 86 i think.....i'm confused about the way he graded them, but i got an 88. Not too happy about that

I had a bad foreboding feeling this morning like something horrible was gonna happen today and so far nothing has, except maureen forgoet her blazer but her dad brought it up right as first period was starting so that wasn't bad....the bad feeling went away eventually but it made me really worried for like half the day, and now i wonder why i got a bad feeling, yeah i know i'm reading too much into this, but still i wonder

You know what song I like but don't like at the same time

imagine by john lennon

the first verse is like

imagine theres no heaven
its easy if you try
no hell below us
above us only sky.....now thats the part i don't like........its like if we dont' believe in like an afterlife what are we leaving for? It messes me up

then it goes

imagine all the people living for today and thats a good part
but still the first verse is annoying

anyway today is my mommy's birthday, i think we were gonna go out to dinner till meaghan whined about not going to swim practice. I don't like swim practices maybe thats because i swim and nobody else does.

I like being busy because I have less time to worry about stuff, like my math grade....so worried about it you guys have no idea. I have to get a 100 on the next test no if and or buts about it, in fact i need more thatn a one hundred and she does give extra credit so i'm gonna have to actually know what i'm doing for this test. I have to go to miss balfe during 4th period and have her explain everything i don't get. I'll definatly do that before the test but there is no test schedualed yet, it better be next week so we can get two more in before the quater ends.

my computer is like spazzing out, it won't play my music......maybe i'll just go listen to clay aiken's cd i started listening yesterday and then i fell alseep but its a good cd lol. Anyway i'm tired i was almost falling asleep on the bus and i'm hungry so i should get some food but i wanted to vent about meaghan

o and mandy's blazer has no sleeve lol and kerri suggested that she just wear it with one arm missing

sooooo now i'm bored i have run out of stuff to say about my life oh wait in caitilns journal she had this thing like........if caitlin was a flavor of ice cream what would she be

so i'm asking you guys
if caitriona was a flavor of ice cream what would she be???
i think thats the coolest question.

anyway now i am really out of stuff to say except i wnat ice cream now....actually its kinda cold i want....pizza. Yeap pizza and those cool italian ices they have in the pizza place. Italian ices are cool. I like rainbow. I"m sure you all care so much, in fact its pretty awesome if you are still reading this

I bought a thumb ring last time i was in the mall and its too big :( and it keeps slipping off so annoying

yeah

you know whats a good song
calling all angels

I need a sign let me know your here
all of these lines are being crossed over the atmosphere
i need to know that things are gonna look up

alright i am done
*tri

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